"Life at work is like a tree full of monkeys, all on different limbs at different levels.
Some monkeys are climbing up, some down.
The monkeys on top look down and see a tree full of smiling faces.
The monkeys on the bottom look up and see nothing but assholes."

hm...

No I'm not finished....with...

1) hippos a.k.a. hypocrites
2) unkind people who loves gossiping about others

Why is it so hard to eradicate world of these people?

I really hate associating with hypocrites, the way they fake a smile (I've tried to fake a smile but sometimes I just get so tired of doing the equivalent, feel like I'm exercising all of my face muscles just by doing that), the way they pretend to care for you, the way they pretend to do all sorts of stuff. Bitches. Seriously what's with the two faced attitude, do you even have a spine? Oh don't preach to me how we need more friends than enemies, you create your own enemies by being a hypocrite in the very first place. It is true that we can never please everyone and eventually at some point there will be people who will dislike you but is there a need to be nice to those who dislike you and then be all bitchy behind that person's back? Sister, you're just being a spineless person by being all nice and friendly when you don't want to, stand up for what you believe in and don't excuse yourself by saying this is the way to go, or this is the one way ticket to being miss popularity.

Then there is another sort of idiots that run around the world gossiping about everyone they possibly can and why? because they are inferior deep down inside and have to gossip about others to put others down. Sure everyone gossips but malicious gossips are definite no-no's who gave you people permission to go around and gossip about what is not true or gossip about what you'll deny if confronted and what's with this large scale gossip? Low life.

Then there's another sort of bitches that should just get the hell out of my face, those who gets all jealous about you (for whatever reason) and then gossip about you, treat you like some sort of enemy or regard you as some sort of person who is undeserving of whatever you have by gossiping about you when it all started from the bitch's jealous feelings about you. What's worse is when you've actually been there for these bitches before, sometimes I really dislike you, you're horrible and disgusting and yet I have to face you now and then...sickening..

ARgghhh...irritated

Feels like my whole world is crumbling down when I am sick.

I have been rather ill the past few weeks but I've been holding it in, going in for work, pushing on every single day. I know the quality of my work have slipped because I am taking way too much time to do my work and I really feel bad about it.

Then last night, body gave me a stern warning that it is tired of pushing itself to the max, my head was spinning really badly last night to the point that I was near fainting. At that moment, I asked myself, whatever for am I pushing myself so hard for? Had I stayed home previously and just fed on drowsy medicine in the day and night, I would have recovered in no time, but yet I choose to only take the medication at night and thus slowed down my process of recovery.

Doctor said I was hyperventilating and really should not stress myself and my body out, if I am sick I should just rest and not push on to the extend that I hyperventilate and let my fingertips and toes turn all numb and cold, she said if this continues it is only sooner or later that I will pass out one day and may just damage my organs? Problem is when I push myself (supposedly so), I don't feel the strain, perhaps like what my friend said, you think you're not but your body is feeling the strain.

At the crucial moment just before I thought I was going to pass out, I asked myself why am I doing what I am doing, I didn't study to get a law degree to push myself that hard that my body can no longer support the mind and is rebelling against it.

A fellow colleague told me, health is the most important, if you don't take care of yourself, nobody will. And that is just so true, so after this chain of medical leave, I am so going to take care of myself. I must not give priority to work. New year resolution number 1.

Through work, I realised, those who are weak often give up, those who are more than weak never give up.

The very day you give up, is the very day you're defeated.

I've been brought up to believe that good will always triumph over evil and I still believe in that.

"Happiness is as a butterfly which when pursued is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly may alight upon you." - Nathaniel Hawthorne

I get so tired of people lying to me and finding out they lied.

Liars are toxins in my system, I need to purge each and every one of you out of my system because you're all hurting me.

"I work for money, you want loyalty? Go get a dog" - Quote of the day!!!

"Had to move on because you've moved on, there's nothing left to hope for, nothing left to embrace"

Someone said that to me, not too long ago, sometime this year, when he was feeling the hurt the most he called and conveyed this message to me. I know this is way too long overdue but here goes:

To him: I am truly sorry, still am and I just want you to know that.

If I can turn back the hands of clock, I wish we've never met, that way, things will be a lot easier for you and you will probably be a lot happier for that many good years of your life.

From the bottom of my heart, please always be happy, you deserve to be happy.

Some people don't solve problems, they just magnify them and make matters worse.

I need problem solvers, not problem whiners.

Have you ever really loved a woman?

I don't particularly like the scene where Mr Big marries another woman instead of Carrie Bradshaw from Sex & the City but somehow that episode has a lasting impression at the back of my mind.

I remember how I used to watch Carrie and felt uber sad for her when her only constant in her almost perfect life was to wait for Mr Big, a man who is often unable to return her feelings in the way she had hoped he would, a man who often disappoints her time after time, a man who eventually broke her heart when he chose to marry someone else instead of her.

She understood almost immediately that she was never meant to play a significant part in his life when he chose to marry the other woman because he truly loves her. She knows Mr Big loves the wife when he chose to play Bryan Adams' Have you ever really loved a woman on the wedding day.

I can only imagine her hurt then. I enjoy Bryan Adam's Have you ever really loved a woman the most among his other great hits. That is the one song that speaks volume of what a man is really like when he really loves a woman. Sometimes it is not what a man says that touches us, the emotional creatures the most, it is what they do and what they are willing to give up for you that touches us the most. Words are cheap, in fact according to my mum, free. They hold no real meaning until the maker of the statement or the person giving those words fulfill them or materialize them.

In fact, I don't see honouring one's words as something that is just part and parcel of a relationship but rather it is part and parcel of every relationship you share, be it the relationship you share with your family, the other half and your friends. We should always honour our words and if we can't honour them, then don't utter them, why build other's expectations to only let them down in the end?

A relationship if taken seriously, can be fortified 100 times if each party to the relationship makes the effort to do more and say less, makes the effort to build expectations only if they are willing to materialize them and because only when you truly mean it, we will know for actions will show.

There will always be temptations around, it's a matter of knowing and wanting to resist them or not.

Lying doesn't solve anything. Lying is not a solution. Lying is just lying.

I want to be fun again. Someone help me?

I honestly think that Victoria's Secret should invite Nelly Furtado to their show this year to perform Maneater on the show as those gorgeous models strut the walkway!

"She's a maneater, make you work hard, make you spend hard, make you want more of her love...."

Parfait song! What say you?

"You can't just go around breaking hearts just because you can" - Anonymous friend

The Kate Moss Talk: Reasons why you can't buy Topshop's Kate Moss collection clothes

Friend: Why do you think people all rush out to buy the Kate Moss collection clothes when they don't exactly suit everyone and some of them are just hideous!

Me: Because everyone's trying to be Kate Moss.

Friend: But they are not Kate Moss and somehow some of the stuff look hideous on a normal person, worst on Asians but lovely on Kate Moss.

Me: Yes that's why it's called the Kate Moss collection?

Friend: ......She's a narcissicist!

Me: I'm sure she knows that already.

Friend: ... ... I'm never gonna get kate moss-ed.

Oh no, I've not stopped blogging! Just watch this space! I'll be back in a few days time!

It's better to be talked about than not talked about

In the real world, everyone gets bitched about every now and then, and the sad truth may be that you don't even know the other person very well or that you've never done anything bad to the other person, that's just life.

One quirky Russian girl, Natasha from ANTM's cycle 8 taught me at least something positive about being bitched about, that is, it is better to be talked about than to not be talked about because this means that you're noticed (and illustrates also that people are clearly jealous of you).

Another thing life has shown me thus far is, karma, we all reap what we sow and for every seed of doubt you plant, there are consequences.

Rumours, gossips are scary and to put them in legal term, they are but hearsay. The one thing I've learnt about hearsay is they are unreliable evidences that cannot be presented to court because the maker of the statement cannot be cross-examined to verify whatever he/she has said in court and as such they are not admissible evidence.

Fairness and justice requires for the person to stand before the court, to be challenged for his/her statement that concerns the accused (otherwise it won't be relevant evidence) and in a way it gives the accused a chance to hear what has exactly been said in court, in his presence and in a way it gives him (his defence counsel) the opportunity to cast doubt on the witness's statements.

But that's not the case in life, is it? People bitch about you for whatever reason (and yes it's so sad that they've only have the guts to do so behind your back) and you don't get your shot at refuting them.

The only consolation is, with time people will see you for who you are and also that people who know you for who you are will not buy these juicy gossips / rumours.

Character assasination is old and sometimes I wish people will just concentrate on their lives and not live and thrive on gossips / rumours. That's just so high school and we all need to grow up.

I mean if you don't have anything nice to say about somebody, don't say it. Adhere to Grice's maxims and you'll become a better person that way. And this is no uphill fight, why should it be? Gossips does not (contrary to popular beliefs) make us look better or make us much more superior than others.

But all that being said, I do acknowledge that we can never stop anyone from shooting their mouths off, all that we can do is to love thy enemy and to forgive thy enemy and just hope that one day these people will see the light and just stop planting seeds of doubt in others and causing unnecessary tension and realise that with time, people will surely be able to see through them and know what kind of person they really are. And believe it or not, individuals practising such abusive acts suffer mightily because they can't focus on their own personal lives, their work suffers and they may suffer from stiff necks from watching their backs when their victims strike back. Hence if there's anything that's worth practising it's self-censorship, watch what you say, keep your mouth closed, do not make a bad situation worse, that way you'll be more likeable and other aspects of your life will gradually become better for all these good karma you've accummulated. It's just so not worth it when you get karmatized (I know there's no such word) just to make things bad for others because when karma bites, being sorry's not good enough.

I've been tagged by Dom, here are the 6 weird things about myself which perhaps no one knows?

1. I am a rebel at heart

2. I am a selective risk taker though I seem risk adverse to most, but I'm just waiting for the right opportunity and the appropriate risk to come along before I leap on it!

3. Though a Christian by faith, I don't always trust the people working for the church because some part of me sometimes feel some people are there for their personal interests and this has led to me developing my own set of logical (or so I think) beliefs on Christian faith.

4. I'm "married" to Orlando Bloom *HAHAHA*

5. The longest I've slept was 2 days in a row and mind you, I did not even get up to visit the toilet.

6. I want to dress up as Gundam Seed's Cagali!

Now I wanna tag Kelvin Goh and Shangli!!! Hee~!~